Monday, May 5, 2008

Dear Sanna - every day is an audition

I think this lack of audition anxiety is the result of having "important" people watching me every day. Going to a new place, I had to prove myself. No matter who was teaching, I always had to dance my best, and there was always someone watching in the doorway. It's not that I am not dancing for myself anymore, because I think I am more than ever, but I suppose the people watching are a little reminder of how I want to better myself. I want to get a job of course, but it makes me happy to be a good dancer.

Every day is an audition, so I am much more used to people watching me and scrutinizing my work. I get nervous within the class, of course, with a combination I am unsure about or display my weaknesses. But I think a small amount of nerves is a healthy way to keep working my hardest.


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