You know what's funny? I have always known that i wasn't one of those naturally tiny people. iI was never necessarily FAT, but i wasn't skinny either. My weight has always been just acceptable, and not exceptional for that extra push in my favor when it came to striving for higher positions, better parts, or acceptances into better programs. That said, I feel like I am always just waiting to be told to lose weight, almost as if I would feel better if the artistic director or teacher would just say it instead of my interpretations of what he or she must be thinking about my body. And then of course the more I stress out about it, the more I just cannot resist the temptation for just one more bite, one more candy bar, whatever. It's not that I don't know exactly what to do to maintain a good weight and feel better about myself, it's just that I psych myself out and sabotage my own eating habits.
And by the way, today was a much better day for me. I hope it was for you too! I just love being at the theater and downtown with everyone and all the holiday cheer :)
--Janie, real ballet dancer with an anonymous name
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eeee sometimes I do that too....
~A
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