Saturday, September 13, 2008

Dear Sanna - mixed messages

The director is just plain crazy. In the same speech I got about dancing with more energy, I was also told for probably the 4th time that I need to watch my weight, so it's not that I'm too thin.

Everyone is told SOMETHING about his or her weight, though, so I'm not too worried about it. It seems like the director just wants the company to look their best and to keep it that way. Every day company members are told they are too heavy or too thin. It almost depends on the director's mood, and we all know now to take it with a grain of salt. This kind of includes all corrections, really.

I'm starting to think many corrections are just a means of pushing us to our full potential, not necessarily pointing out flaws that are unacceptable for the company. So when I am corrected on things I know I do better than other company members, I just try to think it's because the director knows I am at a higher level.

So despite all the grief I get from the director, the other day I was actually placed in the empty space for a 4-girl corps part I have been learning. After we ran the piece, the director told me I was being considered for the 4th girl and that I did a good job in the rehearsal, so I guess the director really does just have a very negative way of giving feedback to the company members.

It will take a little getting used to knowing that negative comments are actually good, but it does make me feel better to know I can still be doing well even when I do hear unpleasant things from my boss.

Janie

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