Saturday, May 10, 2008

DanceMind: Dear Janie -- Friday Meeting

How was your meeting?  I would love to hear!!!

Be patient, Janie. These are some exciting times for you.  To clear out your mind a bit, do some writing in a journal, or use some of those fabulous techniques on the Mental Performances CD's

You could use some restorative sleep.  Lay  down  and go to sleep.

You have mentioned your concern about the 'army' a couple of times. Have you gone to the Embassy, or looked at the requirements. I am sure it is very clear 'somewhere' about army status of citizens.  That would be a serious consideration. You mentioned that you know someone there. Can you e-mail them, or ask the ballet. I think I would  want to know from a very reliable source, such as a government agency,

Giving yourself time to orient yourself, learn everyday life (money, location, shopping, etc.). (different for everyone).

How interesting it would be to compare a foreign company with what you know of American companies and training.

Sanna Carapellotti, MS

Wednesday, May 7, 2008

Dear Sanna - Everything happens for a reason

I have a meeting scheduled for Friday. Did I tell you I missed it while auditioning last week? All those in between the school and company had meetings, either confirming previous offers or getting new ones (or not), so this could be interesting. As I come across more snags in my international plans, it would be nice to have an offer here, just in case it doesn't work out.

I am constantly researching and bugging people to try to nail down some facts about what will be expected of me in order to become a citizen, etc. Many urge that I visit before I go, too, however this is such an expensive trip, not to mention I don't have much time to organize my life before I need to go in August. I would much rather just go in August and give it a year, so I can really experience it before I decide I hate it (I'm sure I won't, but that's what the skeptics say at least). I kind of just wanna go for it and see what happens, as long as they don't end up locking me in the country or sending me off to the army or something.

Everything happens for a reason, but it is very stressful trying to plan for whatever does happen.

Janie

Monday, May 5, 2008

DanceMind: Dear Janie -- Audition Every Day

Janie,
You got it, Baby!  A healthy balance between dancing for you and also for others. Of course those watching whether it is an audience or teachers or others keep you on your toes.

"Bring nervous' is completely misunderstood.  You have to separate out fear/worry from the excitement of performing. The body has a similar 'feel' in both states -- heart rate faster, tingling in the hands and feet ...  That same feeling is felt in other situations that are truly stressful and then gets confused when experienced for performance. One automatically assumes that it is 'bad.'

How could you dance relaxed? You want to be juiced, excitement ...  Ah-ha, some performers like to be more low key as they move toward a performance. The key is to know who you are, what you have to do and how much energy do you need to perform.

That is a very advanced way of perceiving yourself as a dancer. Good job!

Sanna Carapellotti, MS CCHT





Dear Sanna - every day is an audition

I think this lack of audition anxiety is the result of having "important" people watching me every day. Going to a new place, I had to prove myself. No matter who was teaching, I always had to dance my best, and there was always someone watching in the doorway. It's not that I am not dancing for myself anymore, because I think I am more than ever, but I suppose the people watching are a little reminder of how I want to better myself. I want to get a job of course, but it makes me happy to be a good dancer.

Every day is an audition, so I am much more used to people watching me and scrutinizing my work. I get nervous within the class, of course, with a combination I am unsure about or display my weaknesses. But I think a small amount of nerves is a healthy way to keep working my hardest.

Janie

Saturday, May 3, 2008

DanceMind: Dear Janie -- Audition Presence

When you hop back on  Janie. Talk to me about your presence and little to no anxiety at audition.  There is so much to say about that very issue. You have moved from having difficulty to being very comfortable with who you are as a dancer.

Sanna Carapellotti, MS

DanceMind: Dear Janie -- Life and Decisions

Well this news certainly adds flame to the fire ...

I am happy to hear that you spent some time with your grandparents. Being a highly disciplined dancer and possessing a strong work ethic, it can be difficult to get away for a visit with family. I am sure they appreciated seeing you. Touching in with your family is very nourishing.

A prestigious school - hmm-mm.  

Why do you think this company hired you? Did they speak to you about that?  I understand that you are talented and  adorable, pretty and smart... however, I can imagine they do receive applications from "all over  the world."   Believe me I am not questioning your ability, or professional readiness or anything like that.  What do you know now about 'foreign ballet companies and company jobs?' This one company in particular?

What did they say to you?   Maybe I missed this in a previous discussion.

What would help you to make this decision? What is your time frame to make this decision?

The question is "Should Janie go overseas to work with this foreign ballet company?"


Sanna Carapellotti, MS
Performance Specialist


Friday, May 2, 2008

Dear Sanna - life goes on

Before all this business came about with the foreign job offer, I set up an audition for a school as a sort of back-up plan. It's a prestigious school and all, but nonetheless a school and therefore a lateral move at best. I would have to pay tuition here, which I don't do now. Perhaps this would improve my resume, though, so it's hard to determine whether this would be a step down.

Anyway as much as I wanted to audition, this was also somewhat of an excuse to visit my grandparents, whom I haven't seen in a while. It was a very nice (although short) visit. They took me to the audition, and I continued my recent pattern of not being nervous at all. I actually was so relaxed, I even felt myself criticizing the class, and rolling my eyes a few times before I caught myself and remembered I was trying to impress them, not vice-versa. It seemed like a class one has to get used to, so I'm sure it is a good program. I just struggled a little, feeling like I was seeing a tv show for the first time half way through the season.

At any rate, I was accepted into the highest level, which should be expected since this is a school and I like to think I am closer to the professional level, but it is still a nice little confidence boost to get in.

Janie

DanceMind: Dear Janie -- CON, Pointe 2

Janie writes -- Con, Pointe #2 ...

I know very little about the company, which does not necessarily mean it will be bad. But there is a chance that  might not like it or worse, get out of shape or injured while I am there.

Response -- Time has passed and I am sure you have researched and talked with people. Now you know more.   You would KNOW very little about any company UNTIL YOU HAVE BEEN THERE FOR A WHILE.  That would be very true for any experience, ballet, work, vacation or otherwise. Until you are immersed for a period of time you do not really know about them. What you read in the brochure is a marketing pitch and is not always true to how they operate day to day.
It is not about being dishonest, it is business to put our best foot forward even if it is embellished or glossed over. This of course can happen here in America.  I speak with lots of performers who struggle within the dynamics of their companies.  You always have a choice in the event that this occurs --- 1. Leave.  2. Change your response.  3. Ignore.  4. Change the situation.

Knowing you -- You can keep in shape.  Moot point.

You can get injured anywhere on the planet. You will handle it in the best way if injury occurs.I am sure they have professionals on hand because dancers get injured.  Moot point.


Good thinking. You have done a real good job of thinking this through.

Sanna Carapellotti, MS CCHT
Performance Specialist

Tuesday, April 29, 2008

Dear Sanna - In Response to Your Questions...

I am comfortable with (the idea of) living alone in a foreign country. I have never done it, so I can't be sure, but the idea of moving out of the U.S. does not phase me. I really see it as an opportunity to study abroad, which many of my friends and family have already done, so it does not really scare me.

There are concerns in this area that it might not be the safest place, but then again there's always going to be a risk, no matter where I go, and I won't let that dictate my life. There's possibility of another terrorist attack (heaven forbid) in New York City, but I would never think twice about that if I was planning on moving there. I could be scared of living in the south because of hurricanes. To me, there may be fears, but unless there are absolute reasons that would make me weary of even visiting a place, I don't like to let such things prevent me from living my life.

I do not know someone directly in the area, but I have many good friends and family who have already told me about people they know there. An Uncle already told his friends in high positions there that I may be coming, and they promised to take care of me.

I'm not sure I would really call this a risk, but if it is, I took a similar risk by moving where I am now, and I have no regrets.

When I think about myself years from now looking back on this experience, I can't imagine regretting making the move. Rather, it seems like an opportunity one might regret if they missed out on. I am not really missing out on any other opportunities by staying here, because I don't really have any other opportunities. None of the offers I received this year made me feel this way. It was all kind of expected, or disappointing after learning the details.

I can't really predict what I would say to myself in the future, because I don't know how my life will play out. Everything happens for a reason, I think, and I'm sure either way I will have a pretty good life. I'm sure if I go I will learn a lot, no matter what happens. If I decide I hate it and want to move back, then I'll have that experience and that new knowledge. Of course if I like it, I'll stay for I don't know how long. If I don't go, I'll always wonder what could've happened, although maybe sticking it out here another year would result in a job. Or maybe taking a modest position somewhere else, it will turn out to be the right place for me, but why not choose the place offering me a job, with a real adventure?

I can afford to travel home in the case of a family crisis or if I just decide I want to go home. The only thing about living in this place that will be more expensive than my current situation is travel. Everything else (as far as I know) should be about the same, or probably even a little cheaper. I won't have a car there, so no gas money, and I'll probably be within walking distance from the studios, so no public transportation money either. Housing even seems a little less expensive. In addition, I will have a monthly salary, so my parents should be putting out less money that they would if I stayed here, and if I need to come home, they could definitely afford it, or if they continued to give me the same financial assistance as this year, I could use my savings for a plane ticket.


Janie

Monday, April 28, 2008

DanceMind: Dear Janie -- CON, Pointe 1

Janie Writes - It's very far away. This means even more expensive air fare and longer flights. (so less visits home) But not necessarily less people visiting me, because I think this place might have more appeal than my current location.  PLUS I'll be getting paid, so the airfare is more feasible.

Yes, the distance can be a deciding factor. It is far, very far. Less trips home and less visits from family and friends.  People are certainly more mobile these days and what used to be 'half way around' the world now is perceptively much closer.  

Yes, your pay will have to assist with travel costs etc. Unless someone is supporting you, such as parents or others. 

Distance can be a factor if you want to be closer to home, or have home be accessible.
Is your personality one that is easily adaptable to changes?

Sanna Carapellotti MS, CCHT
Performance Specialist

DanceMind: Dear Janie -- PRO, Pointe 6

Pro Point 6 --  Janie Writes --My parents are actually supportive. Of course they do not want me to be so far away, but I was surprised to hear how ready they were to agree to this.

This is a definite plus that your parents support you.  They are saying that they trust you, that you are capable, and that they are in agreement that it could be a good experience for you. They may also be agreeing that some financial support is possible. (Have you discussed the 'business' end of it with them?)

You must have earned their trust and secured their commitment to your goals by your hard work, your life style, how you behave and your attitudes towards them and your desire to pursue ballet. This is to be applauded. We all know that the path in the ballet world is not 
a traditional straight and narrow one. 

You would want to ask -- the "What if's ..."  Can you afford to travel back and forth in the event of a family crisis? Or if you decide that you are too unhappy, or the situation was not safe, or you are injured ???

Because of the distance, I think you need to consider  a broader picture to know that safety and health issues are discussed and reasonably planned out.  It is not like living in the next city where your parents can drive over in you are ill or injured. I do not believe that this is being negative. If you have a plan in place then you, and they, will feel more secure and safer.

I am sure the company has ideas too. Ask them any questions of this nature.

Kudos to you and your relationship with your parents!!! Keep talking with them as you discover more information. Being older and wiser they will have a different slant and perspective to help sort through what you are learning.

Again, Keep learning and discovering!!!  I am so proud of you and your approach to this ---

Sanna Carapellotti, MS CCHT

DanceMind: Dear Janie -- Question

Janie, Let's say you have advanced in age and are now 45. You may be married, have a few children, working, have your education, you maybe involved with ballet in some way.

Can you look back and see/feel this experience as being a part of your life?

What  would you say  to younger Janie if you were helping her make this decision (and she had WENT)

What would you say to to younger Janie if you HAD NOT WENT for some reason?


Sanna Carapellotti, MS CCHT
Performance Specialist and Coach

mentalperformances.com

DanceMind: Dear Janie -- PRO, Pointe 5

I have nothing to lose. I really have no strings here right now. I don't have a job. I rent an apartment. Im attending community college which I intended to transfer anyway. I was prepared to move this year anyway, even if I hadn't thought it would be out of the country. Janie, pro point #5 in  considering her move VERY far away to dance ballet (paid position) with a professional company.

Having this freedom is a definite plus and very well conceived. You are free to move in all aspects of your current life. You can leave when your contract is finished this year. School, housing, work, training and no relationships are holding you in your current state. 

Yes, you had planned to move anyway, unless of course you were offered a position of apprenticeship or company.

So the only thing that could keep you  from moving is you. Are you willing to take the risk?
Well, let's think about  this -- whether you move here or there .... adjustments in home, environment, relationships, training/dance opportunities will be apart of the move regardless as to where you live. New friends, change of scenery/weather, different studio, new teachers,
the need to make new friends, discover new experiences to live life differently in a foreign country.

Most students are forever impacted after living in a different land. The culture stimulates interests and new awarenesses.

Are you comfortable living alone on a forgien country? Is this country a safe place? Are there any concerns in that area?  Do you know someone in the area? Are you a risk taker? 

You have the  freedom to go according to Point #5.

Sanna Carapellotti, MS CCHT

Sunday, April 27, 2008

DanceMind: Dear Janie -- PRO, Pointe 4

Good weather is always a plus.  

WOuld that deter you from accepting a job if it were really hot or very cold at this point?  It is something to consider sometimes. 

Sanna Carapellotti. MS CCHT

DanceMind: Dear Janie --With Information

Janie,  With information you can accept this offer.

     With information you may not want this offer.

Take good notes as you re learning more each day ...

Sanna Carapellotti, MS CCHT

Wednesday, April 23, 2008

Dear Sanna - awww man! (but it's okay!)

I got an email last night from the director's assistant that explains that they were hoping I could come learn some ballets before they go on tour at the end of May so I could go along, but of course I have to finish out my "contract" here so I can't go :( Boo that would have been so cool!

He also told me the next season begins in August, so that sounds a little comfier, to everyone. The contracts last one year and continue from year to year if I "stay working in the company." Does that mean I can get fired? If so, that's okay because I would almost rather see a company with a strong work ethic and integrity than have a cozy job for the rest of my life with a company I've never seen that could possibly be very lazy.

They provide health care (yay) and pointe shoes, although we will need to further investigate this, as I am told they may not be able to get the kind I like. (Could I provide my own and be reimbursed?)

Okay ready for the bad news? The salary I calculated must have been a monthly salary, because I am told I will start out with $1000 a month, not a week. Ha. I knew it was too good to be true. Oh well, as many have said, it's more than I am making now or could hope to make next year anywhere else! Honestly, I am relieved this is the bad news at this point. Clearly I am not in this profession for the money, although it would be nice. I'm hoping this amount will pay the bills, but really, this is an amazing opportunity and as I said I would be making less if I stayed here anyway. So that's that.

Anyway they seem very nice, and I really can't see why I wouldn't accept this offer, as long as the whole citizenship thing goes smoothly - of course I will be looking into that further this week.

Janie

DanceMind: Dear Janie -- Pros - Point 2

POINT TWO - Good Pay. The director's assistant did not give me any details yet, so I googled the companies salaries and found an article that described them in the country's currency. I used online currency converters and unless I messed up or the source is unreliable, the company makes between 800.00 and 1100.00 a week.  That's about what the first year corps at NYCB makes, so I couldn't hope for a higher salary even if I was offered a job here. If I do stay, the best I'll get is a small stipend, no where near enough to pay my bills, or perhaps tuition.

COMMENT --    Yes, that does sound good. HOWEVER, you do not have anything in writing, or a contract.  There may be some other consideration for someone of your position, so you really can't decide if it is good or not until you know what you will receive and the cost of living, etc.

You also have to consider relocation costs. How long will it take you to recoup flights, transfers,  all your expenses. Will they reimburse you for anything?

Many performers work a few jobs to meet expenses. There are countless ways to do that as you know.  

What are the expenses of living in THAT country?  Do you know?  The average income.  The cost of food, rent, etc.   Are your parents willing to offer monthly support?

POINT TWO/PRO


Dear Sanna - told the director of the school

Every time I approach the director of the school, I feel a little annoying and timid, knocking on her door "um do you have a minute?" so today I caught her on her way out of class and said "I have news!" It felt like a better approach, but when I told her, she hadn't heard of the company (I was not surprised) and seemed pretty skeptical at first. She said I could go check it out for the first week in May if I wanted, but I needed to be back for the last 3 weeks of May for shows. I told her what I knew about the company and gave her the website and went to get ready for class. My spirits had dropped a little.

Then, after class, the director and the "career adviser" of the school seemed much more optimistic, after doing a little research. They liked what they saw about the rep, size of the company, amount of performances per year, touring, etc. They said definitely go check it out first, suggesting the first week of May....

Mom did not like that very much. It is "way too expensive" and "too short of notice" for me to fly out for the first week in May. So I emailed the company back explaining my obligations through May.

I still think this looks like a really cool, likely possibility for next year! If so, I will have a very busy few months...

Janie

Tuesday, April 22, 2008

POINT  ONE ....  (PRO going overseas)  It is the only job offer I have. Even if I am successful in all of many auditions. The best offer I can even hope for is a second company position. I could end up back in a ballet school. It seems to me that having been in a ballet corp makes it easier to get a job. Even if I hate it and want to come home. It will be easier for me to get a job than if I had stayed in the states.
COMMENT:

You have a job offer.  You want paid for your work as a dancer.

You must evaluate, and consider if this is right for you.   You are doing research, talking with people, etc. Because you have been offered a PAID position, considering the expenses involved, relocation, other issues, You have to look AT THE BIGGER PICTURE. It is much more than getting paid to dance.

I feel a bit concerned that they have asked you to be on location in less than 2 weeks, or so. How realistic is that for you to jump ship, pay for a visit and really get a feel for if it is right for you.   I am being a devils advocate here, not encoiuraging or discouraging.

I know that many young dancers begin to feel taken advantage of in their training. They work hard, long long hours and sit in the audience to watch other casts perform. You know the drill. Sadly it can be true in some cases and is the nature of the beast.  DO NOT ALLOW this angst to take to VERY FAR away places, unless you have INFORMATION and it makes sense and you are willing to take the risk.

This is now a business decision.  Can you afford  to move and return if you do not like it?
Yes, Students live and work abroad. You can do this if you are willing to accept responsibiltity for the risk. However, you must realize it is not like moving to another area of town, which can be costly, too.



BALLET SCHOOL -- Many dancers are graduating form college after 4 years of training and looking for work. It seems to me (I am not in the profession, yet I hear from teachers and clients in my work)  there is time for maturation. You are not 20 years.  The truth is you may still need to be in training (I do not know that, of course).  



This is not a dream, it is a real possibility that you must evaluate.

Pointe ONE.

Sanna Carapellotti, MS CCHT
Performance Specialist


DanceMind: Dear Janie -- Pros and Cons of Accepting Ballet Position VERY Far Away

Janie,
You have a lot to consider...

I will make a comment about each point(e).

Feel free to write freely about what is on your mind, your joys or fears.  

I am happy to hear that you 'love this blog."

Well, girl, This is so exciting!!!! You have a lot to think about!

Sanna Carapellotti, MS
WWW.mentalperformances.com

Dear Sanna - pros and cons

That's one of the reasons I love this blog. I have considered the pros and cons of this decision, but it's definitely helpful to write it out.

Pros:
1. It's the only actual job offer I have. Even if I am successful in all of my auditions, the best offer I can even hope for is a second company position, and I could end up back in a ballet school. It seems to me that having been in a ballet corps makes it easier to get a job, so even if I decide I hate it there and want to come home, it will probably be easier for me to get a job than if I had stayed in the states next year.
2. Good pay. The director's assistant did not really give me any details yet, so I googled the company's salaries and found an article that described them in the country's currency. I used online currency converters, and unless I messed up or the source is unreliable, the company makes between $800-1100 a week! That's about what first year corps at NYCB makes, so I couldn't hope for a higher salary even if I was offered a job here. If I do stay, the best I'll get is a small stipend, nowhere near enough to pay my bills, or perhaps even tuition.
3. This is a once in a lifetime opportunity. I may never get another chance to live in another country. Since I did not choose the college route, I almost see this as my opportunity for study abroad, except beyond the cultural and educational benefits, this will also probably help my career, and I will make money doing it, rather than spend it as most study abroad students do.
4. The weather is gorgeous. Enough said.
5. I have nothing to lose. I really have no strings right now. I don't have a job, I rent an apartment I can easily get out of, I'm attending community college which I intended to transfer out of anyway. I was prepared to move this year anyway, even if I hadn't thought it would be out of the country.
6. My parents are actually pretty supportive. Of course they don't want me to be so far away, but I was surprised to hear how ready they were to agree to this.

Cons:

1. It's very far away. This means even more expensive airfare and longer flights. (So less visits home.) But not necessarily less people visiting me, because I think this place might have more appeal than my current location. PLUS I'll be getting paid, so the airfare is more feasible.
2. I know very little about the company, which doesn't necessarily mean it will be bad, but there's a chance I might not like it, or worse, get out of shape or injured while I am there.
3. I know very little about the area, and I won't know anyone going there and I will be all by myself, but this could be the case anywhere.
4. I can only go if I become a citizen, and I really don't know the rules about that, so there could be many cons within this one, or there could be very few. I don't know. And I'm only pretty sure I could maintain my American citizenship, but not positive. Which might be bad.

That's all I got! And newsflash since I began this post: just got an email asking if I can come at the beginning of May! That is REALLY soon in case you didn't know. YIKES? ha that was a typo that it was in all caps and with a question mark, but I decided to keep it there because it seems fitting. I'm really excited, so the "yikes" is unsure. Anyway, they seem to understand that I might have obligations in May (which I might. I will need to ask about this). We shall see!!

Janie

Monday, April 21, 2008

DanceMind: Dear Janie -- So much to ponder...

It is  amazing how life can shift in a moment.  You have options!  These days that seems to be a dancer's dream. I am excited for you to have rec'd that offer, yet there is a lot to consider.

First and foremost, are you willing AND able to live VERY far from home. (I know where you are now, but not where the company is located.)  Yes, the expense is high. How dependent are you on your parents. If they are footing the bill, it may be in part their decision, too. It sounds like a time for a family discussion.  I am sure you have told them about this company. What was their response?

In your next post... Make a list of pros and cons ... 

I do believe CONGRATULATIONS are in order. Te must have liked something about you!  I am sure they realize that you can fly all that way to audition.  Good timing and very couragous!

Sanna Carapellotti, MS CCHT
Mentalperformances.com

PS - I gotta do some work at this moment and will hop back on later today.

Friday, April 18, 2008

Dear Sanna - just when I think I've got them figured out...

So casting went up for the company performances, and second cast was not scheduled to perform at all. Blah blah blah whatever. I was a little annoyed, but it was a silly part anyway, so my cast decided to just play it cool, and relax until our school shows resume next week.

Meanwhile, I just heard back from a foreign ballet company VERY far away. I sent them a DVD, photos and my resume about a month ago, and they just told me if I am willing to move there (which I thought I implied by auditioning), then they would like to offer me a position! It's all very exciting and scary, even though I have very little information. It's kind of hard for me to believe they're offering me a job without ever having seen me dance in person...

Anyway I did a lot of research and the city seems really cool. This morning during class, I decided this is something I am very seriously considering. It seems like this might be that really special and remarkable decision in my life that will change everything. It's just a really cool opportunity to go live in a foreign country - practically a really long vacation. AND on top of that, I'll be achieving my goal of getting a job in a professional ballet company. The biggest drawback are that it is VERY far, which will make traveling expensive, and perhaps that since I have never been there, there's a chance I may not like the country or the ballet company.

As far as the new country goes, this could be a pro or a con - I'll never know until I try it.

ANYWAY, back on the ranch, today they decided to throw in my cast for rehearsal, even though casting is up for all the shows and we are not doing it. So perhaps casting will change? It sounds like we are now doing it next weekend... Go figure. So maybe they do like me here after all. Maybe they will offer me a position. But now I have options! Imagine that. I have a choice in the matter. Maybe everything happens for a reason, and they didn't immediately offer me a position here so that I would audition and get a job with this foreign company. Or maybe the fact that I was offered a position will push the director here to offer me an apprenticeship here. I don't know! I don't even know what I want right now! Maybe they still wont offer me anything here. But then again, I am still waiting on a few other places.

My life is a huge complicated mess (but a somewhat happy/exciting one!)

Janie

Tuesday, April 15, 2008

Dear Sanna - wow I thought I made a pre-performance post

So I guess I forgot to make a little post last week before the performance madness began. We were in the theater for the greater part of last week, which was a nice way to get comfortable with the stage before the show for a change.

Casting never officially went up, for your information, but I ended up with some decent parts, actually. All corps, except a piece with only 3 people - a boy, another girl, and I, which I actually got the most compliments on, despite our initial dislike for the piece. One of the others is one of my favorite ballets, even if I was only one of many corps members. I had learned the lead, but never got to do it.

The last was a piece I was not supposed to learn at all. I ended up going to rehearsals a few weeks in, and somehow worked my way up from 4th cast to first. I felt a little bad, because the original first cast girl wasn't really ever officially taken out, and it wasn't even really hinted until she left for a pre-excused week-long absence about 3 weeks ago. It was almost more of a punishment to her that I got to do it (both shows so far, and the rest are just school shows), but she's young and had other parts and wasn't mad at me, even if she was upset. I know there's really nothing I can do, but I still didn't feel great about it.

So the shows went pretty well as far as I'm concerned. More shows for the next few weeks, even though I probably wont be performing too much. Still no words about next year, although there was mention of "talking". Dunno when. The director of the school told me. The same one who said I was probably definitely in for next year (in January), so I guess not exactly the most reliable source. I'll believe it when I hear it from the artistic director and keep you posted.

Janie

Monday, April 14, 2008

DanceMind: Dear Janie -- Hello!

How are you ?

I have been exciting involved with helping dancers and other performers get ready for auditions and Spring shows. I am constantly amazed at he powers that lie within and ow they can be unearthed once fear is reduced and managed and often eliminated. Just as you wrote in a few posts back -- just because you have a certain feeling or sensation or thought -- does not mean that you have to respond to it.

One recent performer I spoke with was surprised to hear that he does not have to believe his thoughts, or feel scared if his heart is fluttering. He realized that it was an excitement to perform no really fear as he was interpreting  it. 

Watch for those patterns and re work them to what works for you!!!

Sanna Carapellotti, MS CCHT
Performance Specialist

Monday, April 7, 2008

DANCEMIND: Dear Janie -- Life as a Dancer

I was just thinking about you!!! and your post popped into my e-mail.

Yes, these moments are difficult.  What do you do? How do you manage?
Are you thinking too much, fretting, personalizing in some way?  

Consider this -- You have done your work and your best (at the auditions) at that moment. You have to let go of the outcome because it is out of your hands now ...  Companies make decisions on numbers, technique efficiency, appearance, emotionality, etc.  What can be a fit at one company may not be a fit for another. It is a reality one must face i this industry, very fickle, very demanding, very subjective.

Even with all your hard work and adorable face, Janie, it is not always about you personally, but what they want and need THAT YOU DO NOT KNOW ABOUT.

Continue working and planning -- Ask yourself a series of what if questions to design a plan? What if - you do not receive the kind of invitation you want? (You have received one, although not what you want.)  What if you do receive something from a company you are not so sure about... maybe you are not a good fit? After the audition you realized that maybe you do not like their style, program structure, ...  

Begin to look beyond and formulate a plan. Go out and have some fun too. Get a laugh with your friends. Do something that you enjoy doing.

Do not give up your work ethic and values -- these qualities are YOURS!  

Time is important...

What do  your parents say about this?  They may have options or suggestions.

Janie, THANK YOU for your honesty and forthcoming approach. You reveal some very difficult moments and excitement that many of our readers truly benefit from. (I get personal emails from them).  You are helping dancers to realize that they have options and are not alone in their struggles.

Sanna Carapellotti, MS CCHT

PS --  You learned a lot during your Audition Tour.

Dear Sanna - anxiously awaiting

I received a letter from the place I wasn't that thrilled with today. Just like they said, I can go there and be a trainee next year, basically what I am doing now - an unpaid position, but only if I go for the summer program. Mwap mwap.

Still no word here. There's a show this week, so I'm trying not to get too worked up over it - I know they're busy, but I'm thinking I might ask after the show. At least I have another option for next year, which might push them in my favor?

Also, Saturday was a week from the audition where I was told we would hear in a week, and still nothing. I hope this doesn't mean it's a no! All I can do is wait, though.

Janie

Sunday, April 6, 2008

DanceMind: Dear Janie -- Lots happening

I wanted to have your information about your auditions available at first glance for several days before I responded. You had a wide range of experiences on the audition trail.

I think I comment under each part so that it is directly associated.

You have discovered a lot about yourself I read. I am happy for you. 

Sanna Carapellotti, MS, CCHT
Performance Specialist

Wednesday, April 2, 2008

Dear Sanna - in the zone

oh yeah the "zone". I mean in general really focused, in the instance I used it earlier, really focused on losing weight. I suppose there is rarely a time when I am not really eating way too much and not really thinking about it, but usually when I get into a habit of eating well, I am very healthy.

It's not that I don't eat sweets at all, but when I am in the zone, I rarely overeat and never feel that gross full feeling. Usually this means I eat less at one time, and more often throughout the day. I have an early dinner and avoid snacks between dinner and bedtime, unless of course I am really hungry, which I know is not healthy.

Frozen veggies are my new favorite. I'm sure I am very strange, but I love eating frozen peas, still frozen. It's like my own healthy version of ice cream! Putting individual yogurts in the freezer is also good. I've unfortunately found that I cannot buy a half gallon of ice cream from the grocery store, because I will have some at least once every day until it's a little more than half way gone, and then I'll just end up eating the rest! So bad. I also can't have too many temptations at once, especially perishable ones, which make it easier to justify eating them before they spoil.

My biggest problem is just eating because I'm bored or I think it's time to eat, or I'm in a social setting with a lot of food, even though I'm not at all hungry. If I just really think about whether my stomach or my brain wants the food, usually I find that I am not really hungry.

I think I'm doing pretty well, and people have told me I look good (yay!), just not the most important people (yet). Soon I think it will be time to speak up if I still don't get any feedback from the artistic director. The show's coming up! We'll see...

Janie

Janie

Tuesday, April 1, 2008

Dear Sanna - advice!

Reading over my other posts, I just thought of a little piece of advice I would like to give to all:

be prepared for random things at auditions!!

such as:

telling people where you have auditioned, your success, etc. and what you are planning to do. I was a little caught off guard when asked this, and I could have been more clear about my hopes of being offered an apprenticeship where I am, and that I had only just begun my auditions

doing variations or whatever - it's a good idea to have music and something prepared just in case. I have definitely heard of directors asking people if they can do a variation after taking company class...

pointe or flat - you never know what they'll want so be prepared for either

slippery or sticky conditions. maybe shoes fit for either? maybe a little baggy of rosin. or if you need it for your heels, bring your own because many places don't have rosin or don't allow it on their floors! I discovered this the hard way...

and try to find out ahead of time if there is a dress code or if people tend to wear tights over or under, etc. I know I feel more comfortable when I am dressed like the company members


Janie

Dear Sanna - auditions 2 & 3

After that first audition, I spent the rest of the day with my mom, and the next morning we left bright and early for my next audition. This was trainee class, and I knew going in that the best position available was an unpaid trainee position. All higher positions have been filled.

I liked the teacher and the class and I thought I danced okay, but to be perfectly honest I wasn't too excited about the program. There were a LOT of girls, and I think it would be a difficult place to get noticed and promote myself next year.

They told me if I came for the summer I was pretty much guaranteed a trainee spot for next year, but unfortunately I don't think this is something I want to do. At least it is purely my decision in this case, right!

Anyway after the audition we had lunch and drove to my home town, where I got to see some old friends and my puppy! And my dad too! It was very nice to be home, if nothing else. But then there was a cattle call the next afternoon, which was just icing on the cake. My first cattle call outside of New York, which was madness last year, I was surprised there were almost 80 people there. They made one cut, after barre, maybe cutting about half the people. I made it to the end, where they spoke to about half of the remaining group about the school. I was not one of those people, so I am either above or below their standards for the school (although hopefully without sounding cocky I must say I was better than many who were in the school group). The rest of us should hear in a week. The longest week of my life, no doubt. I hate to get my hopes up, but I really would just LOVE to get this job. It seems the most promising of the weekend, so keep your fingers crossed for me!

I woke at 4:00 the next morning to catch a plane back here in order to make it to rehearsal. I had originally planned to return monday, but my teacher vetoed that plan and I had to spend a nice sum of money to change to this lovely flight. I raced into rehearsal a little over an hour late, delighted to see the artistic director present. how wonderful. I think they were happy I made the effort, so not too too upset that I was late, but jumping into my spot ice cold and exhausted from traveling and lack of sleep was not the best way to spend my sunday, nor show off my skills to the director. oh well. what are you gonna do? hopefully he'll still offer me something in the near future, because I don't think I need to tell you what a relief it would be to have my future set, at least for the next year.

Oh and did I mention I recently began some yoga classes (you know in all my spare time this past week. ha.)? Anyway if I am in fact here next year, (or even perhaps if I'm not), I am definitely interested in being certified as a yoga instructor, which would be a nice distraction/supplement to ballet that would prepare me for a backup to ballet, or just a source of some extra money if I do make it as a dancer.

Janie

Monday, March 31, 2008

Dear Sanna - traveling and audition #1

So I think I'll begin to tell you about my audition tour where I started - the plane. I was definitely glad I left plenty of time to get settled and used to the time change before the audition. I took a red eye tuesday night and arrived wednesday morning. I had 2 ridiculous layovers to get to my final destination, and I actually missed my second flight! I was about to panic, but in my 2:00 a.m. daze, I managed to keep it together and the airline incredibly got me on a flight directly to my final destination, cutting out an extra take-off and landing for me, and getting me in about 15 minutes earlier than planned! wonderful. not that I recommend missing a flight, but it certainly worked out well for me :)

Luckily I also have an uncle in the area, who picked me up from the airport and took me to work with him, where I conveniently met up with some friends before dinner, where my mom and brother came to meet my uncle and I! It was really nice to see my family. The next morning was my first audition, a company class.

I was somewhat disappointed that the artistic director was not there, however the person who came in his place to evaluate the auditioners turned out to be the person who got me the audition in the first place, since we worked together a long time ago at my old studio one summer.

Many company members did not show up to class, which was nice because I did not have to take anyone's spot at barre and there was plenty of room and opportunity to be seen, but I wasn't a big fan off the class. I think the teacher just was not really my style, especially at barre, and I did not get warmed up or on my leg. Also, I was a little annoyed about my barre spot. I took a spot facing sideways to the mirror, because there were no empty spots facing the mirror, but it was fine because I could at least see myself. Then at the last minute, someone walked in and stood right next to me, forcing me to scoot down to even out the space, where my view was blocked by a center barre. Oh well. The person watching didn't come until center anyway. I got one correction during barre, which I'm not sure is a good or bad thing.

Then in center, things got a little better, but still not fantastic. Center was just okay, as far as my dancing. After class, the person watching spoke to each of the auditioners. I was first, and he asked me my age and about my other auditions so far (this was only my second, the first being a cattle call which I didn't make). He told me there were some studio company spots, but they had only just begun to look (basically don't get my hopes up) and he would contact me in about 4 weeks. I should email him if I don't hear anything, and I did nice work and I should say hi to my old director.

So I don't really know what to think about this audition. It was my first ever company class audition, so it definitely could have been worse. We shall see!

Details about my other auditions to come...

Janie

Sunday, March 30, 2008

Dear Sanna - finally home!

Although it was nice to see my friends and family for a bit while auditioning, the trek home was long and tiring and it is very nice to be home after I had to go straight to rehearsal from the airport!

I will get into the details of the auditions a little later, but for now I would like to share one thing I discovered about myself this week. I am finally used to being nervous! It's not that I don't get nervous anymore, because I definitely do. Like right before an especially hard step or that twang of fear when I make eye contact with somebody important, but at least I am used to this feeling now. I realized that at the beginning of this year, I was absolutely terrified for every company class. Now I am used to always dancing my absolute best, as if someone was critiquing my every move. I know my strengths and I am more able to show them off, rather than get embarrassed or flustered, and I am beginning to feel less anxious during class.

I am exhausted, so I will definitely tell you all about the auditions later this week.

Janie

Saturday, March 29, 2008

DanceMind: Janie Not Back Yet!

With Janie on the road. I am anxious to hear about her travels. Being on the road for auditions can be very costly. Unless it is local, you will have travel expenses for you and your traveling partner (Mom, boyfriend, husband ...) And it can be costly when you add up air fare, meals, hotel, cab/transportation costs, new shoes, lip gloss aaaannnndddd audition fees.

Yes, the audition fees. Many dancers complain about fees. Yet you have to consider that the company has expenses too. (staff, maintenance, etc).

Summer Intensives, training programs, jobs, and productions -- dancers hop planes, drive long distance to audition. All of this can in and of itself be unnerving. Dancers have discovered that they can use that travel time to sit and read, build mental muscle with The Audition CD and catch on lost sleep ... http://www.mentalperformances.com/?section=40.

After all the hard work and preparation, you do want to set the stage BEFORE you walk into the audition room. Do you know you can prepare your mind in many ways BEFORE the audition. You train your mind similar to how you train your body. There are techniques for building INSTANT confidence, or how to mentally rehearse challenging combination using a holographic mind technique.

Dancers tell me that they use the programs all year round because every class is a place where they want to be at their best.

Ballet is competitive and you want your mind to be just as powerful as your body.

We miss you Janie!

Sanna Carapellotti, MS CCHT
Performance Specialist

PS - Visit http://www.mentalperformancs.com for Mind for Dance needs.

Thursday, March 27, 2008

DanceMind: Janie traveling

Janie, I look forward to hearing of your audition travels. What it was like and what you learned?

Best wishes to you and let us know when you return!!! We are excited to hear from you.

Sanna Carapellotti, MS CCHT
Performance Specialist

Friday, March 21, 2008

SPRING!   Are you kidding? We are supposed to get 3 - 6 inches of snow on Saturday. It has been a long winter.

Can you explain the zone please?   

I want you to re read your last paragraph and read between the lines. Notice the _____.

Sanna Carapellotti, MS CCHT
Performance Specialist


Dear Sanna - happy spring!

Ahhhhhhhhhhh. This is my sigh of relief after finally submitted the last of my assignments for my online classes. Thank the lord! I am taking a break from school for now, at least for the next quarter. Whew it feels good to be able to focus on ballet now.

Yes it was great to be noticed, and this week has been going pretty well, I must say. My group has been cast in this little part for the next program. It's such a nothing part, they would never make company members do it, but I am still happy to be learning it. I'm also told that my costume is apparently the only one with only one name, and there are 7 people cast for 4 spaces, so I suppose it was intended that I be the only one with my own part. Unfortunately, the man who set the part was not the same one who casted it, and the person with the casting didn't show up until we had already started, so as of now I am second cast, but it's nice to know that it was at least intended that I be first cast.

I keep seeing the directors of the school and the company chatting, and although I have absolutely no basis for these thoughts, I am convinced they are talking about me and how they are about to offer me something. Haha just my dream, but it's nice to think that rather than something negative. I think I've been doing pretty well in class, too, and in school rehearsals I've been going in for the lead I'm learning (finally) because the first cast girl is out of town this week. So it's my time to shine! A nice confidence boost before I go do some auditions next week.

About my weight... once I get in the zone I get in the zone! It's so easy to avoid overeating (my main issue) when I'm in the routine. Unfortunately, all of a sudden, I decide I am starving and I can't stop eating. And then it seems like there is temptation everywhere. My one day off, there's nothing to distract me from food. I just keep heading to the kitchen. And then all my friends want to go out for dinner, and even though my "diet mode" involves eating most of my calories in the middle of the day, and eating little or nothing after evening class, I can't say no to a night out, nor go out without wanting to eat my money's worth, or taking advantage of my rare chance for a delicious meal.

FYI right now I'm kind of back in the zone, but I'm sure the temptation will come (especially because we are nearing the weekend and Easter - a day off!)

Janie

Wednesday, March 19, 2008

DanceMind: Dear Janie -- Good for you!

Yes the Scarlet Stockings is a good story. The review is a few posts below if you want to ck it out. I highly recommend it!

Well,  Do you want to talk about wght issues? The gain and lose cycle presents a challenge to you and it is  a good idea to stay with in a range of a few pounds, not 5 - 10.  The body gets confused and actually holds fat when the weight fluctuates that much. 

There are a few principles that are simple and helpful. Tell me first what do  you  think the issues are for you.  

So you got noticed. To be seen, ah yes. Every Ballerina's silent quest.  I'll bet he was watching before. People watch, sense  and observe in many ways that are not obvious or standard.  

Sanna Carapellotti, MS CCHT
Performance Specialist


Friday, March 14, 2008

Dear Sanna - sounds good!

You've got me hooked. I have only one more week of my online classes (thank goodness!) so I will actually have time for some reading again! It is such a relief to be almost finished. School is just so stressful to me, especially when I have so much going on at ballet, too.

In the artistic director's company class the other day, I got more attention than I think I ever have before! I was so excited for him just to say my name (twice!) and give me a few corrections. It's really encouraging for me to not feel so invisible in company class, if nothing else. However, I am hoping this does mean more, like he has seen an improvement and is going to offer me an apprenticeship... we shall see. I was really motivated to lose weight right after my meeting, so I was at my thinnest about two weeks afterward. I have gained and re-lost a little since then each week, so now I am thinner than what I was at the meeting, but not quite my thinnest. Anyway, it seems like he has noticed my hard work, so if I keep it up I don't see why he won't keep liking me :)

Janie

DANCEMind: Dear Janie -- The Scarlet Stockings Review

Hello,

I was asked by Mariya Mazuryan, Precendent Inlimited, a publicity company to read and review the new book, The Scarlet Stockings by Charlotte Kandel. Below is the review.

Sanna Carapellotti, MS CCHT

REVIEW -- The Scarlet Stockings, By Charlotte Kandel

This book is about a little orphan girl, Daphne Green, who has a burning desire to dance ballet. (Daphne had lived at St. Jude's Orphanage since she was a baby. She had no family to speak of.) A self taught dancer Daphne receives an anonymous package containing a book entitled, "How to Teach Yourself Ballet," a pair of scarlet ballet stockings and a riddle. Though confused, the book seems to inspire her motivation to self-instruct. The scarlet stockings are a fun added bonus, until Daphne realizes the power they possess and her need to manage her own emerging self-worth and power.

As she trains for her ballet career high drama unfolds. Daphne's trust in the power of the stockings sets the stage for encounters and many obstacles, one of which nearly costs her life!

After many setbacks, twists and turns, Daphne discovers where true power lies, along with the importance of family and forgiveness.

Although this book is geared to a young teen audience every night I eagerly heated my tea water and climbed into my comfy chair to read. My thoughts wandered to Daphne's plight through the day. I wanted her to succeed, wondered where she was headed and contemplated what I already knew from my reading.

My intentions with this review are not to tell you the story, but to inform you that this book is a good read for an aspiring dancer, a parent with a dancing child, and any child who has strong passions. If you dance, have dreamed of dancing, or have witnessed the roller coaster ride of ballet training and performance, you will identify with this book - the story line and the characters.

Ms Kandel captured Daphne's passion and spark for ballet -- the intense need to dance, to be seen and accepted and her desire to perform. This unstoppable passion drove her ambition and was applauded in many ways. To capture that energy in words is a difficult task. Ms. Kandel's words that described Daphne's ups and downs lifted and lowered my emotions too.

Throughout the story there was always a hint of mystery and the story line wold veer off into another direction just when I wanted it to be fair and good. As we all know the performing arts field is not always fair and good. The events were not predictable and served as a gentle reminder. Anyone who dances ballet will align with these inherent struggles.

To complicate matters, the author unexpectedly wrote in another character or further developed another aspect of the story, ie the riddle, the stockings, the 'family dynamics,' and Daphne's external support system. These elements were woven into the story nicely.

Her descriptions of Daphne were very clear and I was able to imagine her in my mind's eye.
Of course it was my own image yet she came alive which made the story touch my heart. This was also true of the other characters.

The other characters had very certain personalities and appearances. I enjoyed the distinctiveness of each. They stood firm amidst all that was going on with Daphne.

The scarlet stockings are every dancers' dream, the hope of perfection, the freedom of expression and the power of dreams -- that level of consistency and ease is what one aspires toward.

A dancer's dream of possessing absolute certainty of skill, control and command of attention pulls one along to strive toward that illusion of perfection. ALthough it is 'not taught' the implication is ever present, even if only in young eyes.

Again without the detail, I thought the scarlet stockings were ingenius. they were a match for Daphne's intensity, her own need to 'make adjustments,' and to discover her inner strength and other resources.

The Scarlet Stockings, by Charlotte Kandel is a delightful page turner that I would recommend for any young reader who holds passion for ballet ~~ and for life.

Tuesday, March 11, 2008

Dear Sanna - 7 obscurities

7 random things about me:

1. I ALWAYS make a wish when I see the clock at 11:11

2. I have obsessive compulsive tendencies, like counting steps or avoiding cracks on the ground

3. I watched Home Alone every day as a child, and my favorite quote was "families suck"

4. I have never heard more than a quarter of the music in my itunes library

5. I can't use the restroom if I know people can hear me

6. I used to cry about my life going too fast ...when I was about 6

7. If John Mayer asked me to marry him today (although we have never spoken) I would say absolutely yes, despite the faces he makes while playing guitar

Dear Sanna - commencing condensation

I think I'll try to condense that last post a little at a time. I'll start with a sentence for each part.

Why be mad I didn't perform when I can be happy I learned it? Why be upset I wasn't chosen for a company I don't want to dance for anyway? Ballet should be fun, because it makes me dance better, it's more enjoyable to devote my time to something that's fun, and I can express myself.

I'll get back to that later...



Tonight we were surprised to see that our substitute teacher was the drill sergeant who teaches our Tuesday morning class every week. Imagine my excitement. It was almost a blessing in disguise that we had no warning, though, since I had no new pointe shoes sewn to wear at barre, so my toes got a little break (until center at least). Actually, tonight's class wasn't so bad since there were a lot more people for her to evenly distribute her nitpicking, but I think I'll still feel that 1000th fondue tomorrow when we're repeating for the tenth time on releve and there are only a few meager adults to distract her.

It's okay though, it's good for me.

And in my frustration trying to find a flight for an audition that will get me back in time for an oh-so-important Sunday rehearsal, I pigged out tonight, so I guess sweating to the point that there was literally 4 square inches of leotard that wasn't completely drenched in sweat kind of makes up for that a little.

...I digress, but it is way past my bed time! Spring forward. Jeez. Goodnight!

Janie

Monday, March 10, 2008

DanceMind: Dear Janie, We Have been Tagged by Selly!

A few posts ago we were tagged by a delightful regular reader and dancer, Selly. I had heard of Blog Tag yet did not know how it was played. It is easy enough.

Here are the rules:
1 - Link to the blog who tagged you.
2 - Post the rules on your blog
- Share seven random and/or weird things about yourself.
- Tag seven people at the end of your post and include links to their blogs.
- Let each person know they have been tagged by leaving a comment on their blog.

Here are seven things you do not know about me:

1. I am a coffee snob. I can taste the slightest change in bean. That first sip can be annoying. I am either commited or it is dumped. I also can only drink a half a cup at a time because it has to be a certain temperature.

2. I used to be a body builder and power lifter. Worked out 2 hours every day.

3. I am highly intuitive.

4. I dressed as a bag lady with my friend, Kevin, to see how people would react to us. We went to Bennigans for dinner dressed poorly and were treated poorly. We were not obnoxious just badly dressed. One guy told my friend at the bar (she was a (friend) plant) "Ya know if you look at her, she ain't too bad looking."

5. I rode a motorcyle for 5 years.

6. I wear a charm that I gave my Mom when I was twelve. It is pinned inside my bra. I feel safe and connected to her

7. I ate chickens' feet when I was a child and liked gnawing on them. :(

Friday, March 7, 2008

DanceMind: Dear Janie -- It in There

Janie -- Good Post. Very meaningful. 'Full of it' in a good way.  You have lots of clear insights and very definite emotion.

After writing about WHAT YOU BRING to ballet .... do you feel the difference in terms of purpose and what keeps you focused. Who you are is steady. That devotion is constant. Creativity is energy that is shaped and ever flowing.

You have a couple of really good lines in your last post that can speak of that thread we have been working on -- Can you reread that and pull out a short sentence that says it all
Read it without 'thinking.' Let the words lift out of the page for you to connect with. Your insight is powerful.  Take a look at the essence post again too.  It is very spiritual (not in a religious sense). 

This statement will carry you when times are tough, when you need to keep going, or your feet are bleeding.


Dear Sanna - humor, devotion, and creativity

Whew this is a long one! Read it in three parts if it makes you feel better...

part 1
Your "keep going" post, made me laugh, Sanna. It is so true. What am I going to do about? Of course I am not going to scream at the director. I'll even admit that I was almost relieved to not perform. We all know second cast was not prepared to go in! And the same thing you said popped into my own mind. I surely wouldn't be happier if I hadn't been asked to learn the piece at all. That would be "unfair", too. I can analyze this for hours and hours and go around in circles justifying both my frustration and the director's decision. But instead I'll just choose to be an optimist and be thankful for my opportunity to 1) watch great dancers, choreographers, musicians, etc 2) learn new choreography and get extra practice 3) burn more calories! (haha I'm kidding. kind of)

part 2
I have now finished this year's first official audition. Nothing. Not that I was really expecting much, but disappointing nonetheless. It's almost worse when those places I am not all that interested in are not-all-that-interested right back. Really we are not meant to be. It's okay. I don't especially want to live in this place, and the rep is entirely too contemporary for my liking/training. It's just frustrating to see others who I suspect are in a similar situation chosen above me. It's not like I would turn down a job! I'm just getting antsy, not exactly having any sort of back-up plan for next year. Honestly if they don't offer me anything here or anything else, I have no idea what I will do. I am not ready to give up.

part 3
Which brings me to your question - what do I bring to ballet. I thought I could best describe what I bring to ballet with three words that also conveniently organized this post for me: humor, devotion, and creativity.

I like to have fun with ballet. I think my smile can be contagious, and I can change the whole energy of a room or corps de ballet. Sometimes a little humorous, friendly competition can help us all maybe whip out that third pirouette. I don't know, but it seems like everyone's a little happier and dances a little better when we spread the cheer, so I like to be a little bit of a class clown sometimes.

Of course I am devoted to ballet. At this level, we all are (I hope). But I really think I put all my heart and soul into my dancing. I want all my energy to go into really perfecting a tendu, if we are working on tendus. I will, almost selfishly, do practically anything for ballet, or at least want to. It is probably way too high on my list of priorities, but I like it that way.

Finally, I think the best thing I offer to ballet is creativity. I love to find new ways of looking at the same steps dancers have done every day for years and years. It's fun to phrase the steps in a combination to make it unique from everyone else, and I love the freedom to choose which parts of a dance I want to highlight with big, bold movements, and which I want to do quickly or quietly or whatever I want. It's amazing how much we can say with our bodies, without saying a word.



thanks for your patience with my absence/extreme posting!

Janie

Thursday, March 6, 2008

DanceMind: Dear janie, Essence

Whether it is ballet, horticulture or debating, there is often a 'calling' described when this passion rises. (in your case ballet). It is a deep sense of connected with whatever you do. You have a purpose. It feels clear no matter what the cost. It fits like a glove. I gives you your breath.
You express yourself through movement and rhythm.

The experience of ballet is too fickle, in a way. the ups and downs, the trials and tribulations, the joy and achievement.

you carry this connected, this essence to class. Because it is who you are. Dancing gives you deep purpose and fulfillment.

A rose comes from a rose seed.

When you carry this 'spirit' into class than you are always on solid ground. A bad day is part of the experience. A good day is part of the experience. It is ballet.

This spirit brings you back for more Because it is who you are.

Like the climber I mentioned a few posts back. He must climb as You must dance.

I know a dancer who was born dancing. She 'never walked' when she was little. She was always twirling, leaping, spinning and bowing. Today she is a dancer. We all bear gifts.

Sanna Carapellotti, MS CCHT

Wednesday, March 5, 2008

DanceMind: Dear Janie -- what do you bring?

Janie, yes the weeks fly by.

I stop and think "I wonder what Janie is up to?" "Has she heard from her auditions?"

Wow! It is almost time for summer intensives. Dancers traveling, sleeping away from home ...

I have a question - What do you bring to the art of ballet as a dancer?

Sanna Carapellotti, MS CCHT
Performance Specialist

PS -  Stay tuned for some exciting new programs fro dancers! HINT: Summer Intensive!

Monday, March 3, 2008

Dear Sanna - where did the week go!?

That man who climbed Mt. Everest sounds amazing. It's true - it really is hard to imagine the incredible things one experiences without experiencing it for yourself.

I love ballet because I still feel like dancing every day, even when I say I hate it, because I'm frustrated and sore and my feet are blistered and my legs are sore.

The company finished their program and are finally on break, although the school really never gets a break. We actually have extra rehearsals now, to take advantage of all the free studio space.

School is a little overwhelming right now, but almost over! Finally! Just 2 more weeks left in this quarter. I still have to decide if I will take more classes right away...

Janie

DanceMind: Dear Janie,

I just finished reading "The Scarlet Stockings," by Charlotte Kandel. I was asked by her publicist to read it and write a review on this blog. At first I thought 'no, I won't.' Then I decided that it was time for me to indulge in a litle fiction and offer a review. Well I must say I was in for a surprise. I will complete the reivew this week and you can read it here. What a story!

Janie, How are you? Any word on your auditions?

Sanna Carapellotti, MS CCHT

Thursday, February 28, 2008

DanceMind: Dear Janie -- Keep Going

Happiness is continuous creative activity.  Baba Amte (social activist)

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"Yes, that really stinks learning and rehearsing a piece and then not performing it --- Yet it is a part of the experience. Rehearsing and learning those parts is an extension of your training. Everything you do builds strength of mind and body.  

I know how you love performing.  There is nothing more exciting that breathing the breath of those who had danced before you on the stage. The lights, the costumes, the smells, excitement, camaraderie, work .... 

If performing is your expected outcome of learning a piece you may feel more disappointed than you need to be.  This is a reality that aint gonna change, Janie.

This is a common complaint, yes?  I know I hear about the 'unfairness.'  It probably does not go on your resume either, even if you learn it really well.

How can you let go that frustration, cause it is not going to change.  

HOWEVER ----

You never know what is up around the bend.  Dancers quit, are injured, have emergencies, become ill .... Life happens yet the performance has to go on.

It is certainly not to hope that someone becomes ill or hurt or has troubles.  
You must always be ready to do your 'part' even if you do not perform it.  

Let me ask you this -- Have you had the experience that "Oh I learned that piece when I was at __________."  

The other side is -- Let's say that they DO NOT INVITE YOU to learn any piece of choreography?  hmm-mm.
_________

It is the same with my work -- I love learning and developing new techniques to assist people with healing and performance issues.  I  put many hours in study, classes, etc. 
However,  applying the newly learned technique to my first Monday morning client, if it is not appropriate, would be uncaring and unprofessional.  So I hold it until it is applicable, yet my brain and knowledge base has expanded. I am more competent.  I guess this can be applied to many professions.

Same with you, Janie. Look at it as 'growing' yourself as a dancer.  

Or you can storm up to the artist director and scream, "This is not fair! I have 4 blisters on my feet from learning this piece. I want to perform NOW!"

Better to buy a journal ...

Sanna Carapellotti, MS CCHT
Performance Specialist

PS -- Let us know about your auditions/ possibilities.

Monday, February 25, 2008

Dear Sanna

So second cast corps is officially not performing this program. I'm not really surprised, nor extremely upset, since I'm not the only one or anything, but it is disappointing to go through another season of almost daily rehearsals and a few weeks of sitting at the theater, useless, without getting anything back really. I guess it's always good to have the opportunity to learn new choreography, practice, etc., but... yeah. Anyway it's still fun to be at the theater and get to watch the shows and sometimes even get a little break from school class when we are supposed to be at two places at once. Last week we actually got in trouble, though, for missing school class when we were told to be at the theater. Go figure - seems like a lose, lose situation to me, so at least we got to rest our feet a little.

Anyway I am currently awaiting replies from many companies to which I sent requests for company class auditions. I emailed some places, sent letters and DVDs to others, or made phone calls. So far I've only heard back from two or three, with official dates set up with only one! Hopefully things will come together this week, or else I'll have to start nagging.

Janie

Friday, February 22, 2008

DanceMind: Dear Janie -- Love and Passion

Last night I attended a National Speakers Association event. Will Cross was the guest speaker.
He climbed Mt Everest 3 times. On his third try he reached the top. To hear his story was breath taking. The planning, the work, the risk (he is also diabetic and has 6 beautiful young children) and his commitment to his love and passion for climbing. He has climbed  mountains all over the world.

He showed us this photo of him standing on this 4 story high ladder. He was climbing up a wall of ice.  I looked at that photo and was awe stuck, some in the room were negative thinking - "Not for me!"  (I had that thought too)

He looks at it and is smitten with love and deep passion. His entire being sings. It is who he is.

It was an amazing story -- We climb mountains in our minds and he actually physically climbs the mountain and views it as a challenge through which he nourishes his soul and inspire others to pursue their passion, even if it is scrapbooking. 

I had no idea of all the risks and how one has to go about climbing. How one has to walk and breathe and eat, and use time. It was such an experience to hear. I see him in front of the room talking and joking, yet that is all I see. I am not involved or present in the process or the anguish.

Like ballet, I can watch you perform, all dressed pretty, taking your bow, yet how you get to that center stage takes an enormous effort. As you advance up the ranks YOU HAVE TO KNOW WHY YOU ARE THERE from the inside. Because if you quit tomorrow, someone will take you place real fast.

This statement is not complicated, Janie. It is what keeps you dancing when your feet are swollen and hurt, and no one sees you or notices, or when you want to sleep.

Think of it like a magic carpet, as one a dancer client realized. She created this whole empowering experience around this carpet that gave her strength, healing and guidance. It was really cool.

Sanna Carapellotti, MS CCHT
Performance Specialist




Wednesday, February 20, 2008

DanceMind: Dear Janie -- Good Eye!

"SMART" move on your part.  The details are important.  

Your statement is operational even though you have not spoken it.

:)

Sanna Carapellotti, MS CCHT
Performance Specialist

Dear Sanna - why I dance on hold

So today we had rehearsal for the company, which has mostly consisted of me trying to practice in the back of a cramped studio, as a member of the second cast. But today my alternate was missing so I got to go in! The directors didn't really realize, so they were about to start with a missing person and I asked if I should step in, trying to be a "smart dancer". They said yes please, but nothing after the rehearsal, so I don't really know whether or not I impressed them or if they even noticed me, but it was fun to actually get to dance, and I think I did an okay job. We are all lazily excited to get to miss school class to go to the theater the rest of the week! I love being in the theater, whether I get to dance or not, plus it will be a nice little break having only one class a day. Well that's all for now. Good night!

Janie

Tuesday, February 19, 2008

DanceMIND: Dear Janie -- Seed

Janie,
It is like an undercurrent that steadies your 'pointe,'  gives you purpose, defines you.  Some of what you revealed is dependent on mood or performance.  This statement comes from within. It is what is inside the seed that is 'seedness.' or petunia-ness.  :)

Sanna

PS --   Do you find that performance creates stress eating with yourself and other dancers?

Monday, February 18, 2008

DanceMind: Dear Janie, You are close

Yes, you gain a lot of life skills, such as discipline, passion, vision as a result of ballet. You love ballet. Ballet strengthens your work ethic, offers constant challenge, and stimulates excitement. As you have written in recent posts, it is very clear what ballet does for you. How it has shaped your life.

What do you bring to the studio, Janie?

That sentence, or affirming statement that strengthens your conviction about why you do this every day for so many hours in so much pain for your life.

Imagine if you could pour all of this sentiment into a funnel -- what sentence would form.
Your statment is a reverse of this energy, Janie. You talk about what BALLET DOES FOR YOU. This is energy moving toward you. My question is "what moves out of/from you that circulates, connects and mingles with this practice of ballet and what it could offer to someone? HINT: Life purpose/truth.

I am not going to give the statement to you, BECAUSE I DO NOT HAVE IT. You have to discover it within as it lays a foundation for WHO you are in relation to what you have chosen to do. The more clear you are, the stronger you become.

You have to want to get there ...

Sanna Carapellotti, MS CCHT

Sunday, February 17, 2008

Dear Sanna - I need help

Okay I feel extremely shallow, but on my several attempts to pull out my deep, inner reason why I love dance, I can't really think of anything more than that it is responsible for all the aspects I like about myself. I feel like it's a great way for me to discover new things about myself, like how I can be creative and make things my own, even when they are a specific choreographed step that everyone else must do as well. I like how it motivates me to really push my limits and get things done or work hard at things that might not matter as much if I didn't have ballet. I always got straight A's in school, because I never wanted anyone to have a reason to say ballet shouldn't be a part of my life. If I didn't have that motivation, maybe I would've slacked off a little more, or who knows? Anyway, I guess my one sentence is that I love ballet because of the way it makes me feel and the things it makes me do, but that's not really a "spiritual in nature" answer, is it? Where do I go from here?

Janie

Thursday, February 14, 2008

DanceMind: Dear Janie, Why.

Janie,

You are almost there. I hear you and know it was already written.

However, here is what I want you to do ...

Sit in a quiet meditation with 'all your love and practice for ballet'

There is no need to run out and buy incense. All you have to do is take a few breaths, sit quietly and place your attention on your ' heart center.' After a few mins., ask this question, "why ballet/ or What purpose does this have? WHY do I have to do this?

Constrct your own sentence. Allow the response to surface. You will hear it loud and clear,

I want you to come up with a defining sentence that speaks ALL THAT YOU WROTE ABOUT. (I will give you a hint -- it is spiritual in nature.)

Everything you wrote and re-presented is good, clear and strong. Yet it all links back to that seed in the previous post. Your love grew out of something.

When you touch in with that, you will take command.

Sanna Carapellotti, MS CCHT
Mentalperformances.com

Dear Sanna - Deja vu... again?

Once again, my thoughts seemed familiar, and sure enough, I have laid out the reasons I dance. This is from a post of mine last year:
It would be impossible to explain all the reasons I dance, but I'll try my best...

First of all, I love the challenge. There is always something more to strive for. Your training is really never done, and it's exciting and fun to be constantly improving and being able to do more and more. It's fun to jump higher and do more turns! I love seeing my progress over time and having the ability to literally change my body.

I also love the order ballet gives my life. I look forward to a regimented class every day. I like the level of respect that isn't necessarily a part of everyday life for most people.

Performing is also one of the reasons I dance. Being on stage gives me a thrill unlike anything else. I especially love getting the opportunity to dance many shows where I can become familiar enough with a role to have fun with it and really dance to my full potential. It's nice to know the steps well enough to stop thinking about the steps and focus on my technique and performance quality.

When I'm not dancing my body just doesn't feel right. Even a few days off makes me feel stiff and lazy. It's nice to have a career/hobby that also keeps you in shape.

But then I'm missing the sort of inexplainable thing that makes me love ballet itself. I don't really know why I think doing plies and tendus every day is so much fun. Or why I think a foot can be beautiful or somebody twisting their body into abnormal shapes. My mom used to ask me in wonder all the time why I wanted to go to class every day, even when I wasn't performing. I just like it. I like the people involved in the ballet world (for the most part) and that sort of inside joke if you will that only ballerinas share. For some reason we all just seem to get each other and I love being part of a worldwide network like that. I feel special being involved with ballet and I don't think I will ever be happy unless ballet is a part of my life, whether or not I make it as a professional.
All of this is still true. Just today I was grumbling in the back of a very crowded class at a difficult combination, when I watched somebody do a step and had a mini epiphany. (That looks like fun!) Ballet is fun, simple as that. I wanted to do the pirouette and land in a different position and turn and twist into something else to this beautiful music we so often take for granted JUST because it's fun and for no other reason. That's why I love dance.

Janie

Wednesday, February 13, 2008

DanceMIND: Dear Janie -- Seed

Janie,
Think of it (the WHY)  as a seed. 
If you plant a seed, everything grows out of its 'seedness.'  The roots, stem, petals, leaves ... everything that creates the plant. Under the ground and above the ground is all the support it needs to determine the quality of plant .... from  sun, rain, ecology of the soil and micro-organisms. 
It all goes back to the seed. The seed defines and influences the path (What kind of flower it is)  (Its characteristics) etc.
Same with ballet.
Sanna Carapellotti. MS CCHT
PS -- It is the same with auditions -- Some say, I want to get in to >>>>> ....  but they really do not know WHY they are there. There is sometimes more concern for status then what is best for WHO THEY ARE AS DANCERS.  The Audition CD helps to define and manage that whole process.
When you firmly know WHY YOU ARE THERE. You claim your space and go for it. 
Got it?
Janie,

The WHY must come from within. Most of what you ID'd are outcomes because you dance. The structure of the class is an external factor. WHAT DOES it do for you?  You can complain. No problem. That is why we are here to see that it is not all 'spotlight and flowers.'  You have to answer for yourself WHY. WHY are you willing to do this --

All of what you mentioned ties together inside what drives you.

Janie - dig deeper.

Sanna 

PS Gotta get ready for a client ... Later

Dear Sanna - I love dance

I love dance! I know I complain a lot, but it's only because it's so hard to become a dancer. I love the feeling I get when I dance (most of the time), and I love the music. I love the structure of having class every day and the sense of respect in ballet that is often lost in today's culture. I feel like I'm part of an exclusive club just because I'm a ballerina - we understand things that "normal" people do not. I never forget the things that make me love dance, like performing or that feeling of getting a step just right. Just like anything else, of course there will be times when I am not thrilled with everything about ballet, but I'll never stop loving it.

Janie

Tuesday, February 12, 2008

DanceMind: Dear Janie, Why?

Janie,
Why do you dance? Do not say -- I love to dance ...

Dig deeper. You have to have a clear compelling reason to get through these moments.

Everyone can have a goal. But WHY do you have that particular goal. Why ballet. What makes this so important that you are willing to do what you do -- every day.

Sanna Carapellotti, MS CCHT

Monday, February 11, 2008

DanceMind: Dear Janie, Yes ...

Yes, that is a very sad reality. To what end? All the stress, pain and time ... No there are no guarantees. It sounds exciting, but what does it mean - really?

Look around you. You have to know that this is a reality.

Sanna

Dear Sanna - mixed feelings

I suppose it's hard for me not to dwell on the fact that I could already have an apprenticeship, but I don't yet. And even if I do get an apprenticeship, then what? If I am struggling this much just for the apprenticeship, why would I be chosen above the other apprentices for a spot in the company next year? I'm just worried that I will fall into the rut just like so many dancers I see. They are offered these unpaid positions, only to have to find a new place to do the same thing the next year. I just get really stressed out.

DanceMind: Dear Janie, Trying to Smile?????

Janie,
I am wondering ... ( a viewer also noticed) ... You have the possibilities of an apprenticeship before you and a 'day away.' What makes it difficult to 'smile?'

Sanna Carapellotti, MS CCHT

PS -- Coming soon -- Tips and Interviews on Mentalperformances.com

Saturday, February 9, 2008

Dear Sanna - trying to smile

I asked my teacher about the meeting and she said that if I do the things we talked about in the meeting, I WILL (definitely) get an apprenticeship. She also said I already looked thinner, which is of course very nice to hear. I still think it will be good for me to do some auditions and see what happens.

...On another note, I am excited for a little mini-weekend getaway! My friends and I are taking a little road trip tomorrow afternoon after ballet, and it should be nice just to get out of town for a day. It's nice to take my mind off of things before next week when I'll really have to get my act together with my resume, videos, and pictures to send out for auditions.

Janie

Thursday, February 7, 2008

DANCEMIND: Dear Janie -- Life as a Dancer

Your recent post read like the life of a true dancer -- excited, working on weight, rehearsing, looking, uncertain, wanting to be noticed and exhausted.  

There is usually several topics in each post ...

1. Weight Issue -- First I posted a new article on my site ... It reveals the #1 researched tool that assists with weight reduction.  AND it is does work!  

Give some thought to your weight goals. What does 'tone up' mean?  

I am happy to hear that you have some support with your auditions. It is not guaranteed support.   Use your AUDITION CD to help you get mentally focused and clear minded.

The apprenticeship ~~  Of course, the company will offer it to whom they believe is ready.  It sounds like you may have a few things to do before that is offered. There are so many things to consider THAT YOU WILL NOT BE PRIVY TO as we talked earlier.  There are a number of positions.  The apprentice position is a step up and closer to reality.  Follow through with your plans of talking with an instructor.  Keep the focus on YOU, not that they offered positions to others.  Ask for clarification, tell him/her what you are doing as follow THROUGH.  Tell him you are following this helpful blog ,,,   :)  

Yes, it is nice to have the exhausted spent feeling after a rehearsal. I do not know it yet I 'feel' it in mu own life with my workouts and yoga.


PS -  Smile~

Dear Sanna - it begins

I've been eating really well for the past week, and I hope the directors are noticing my effort to shape up. The more I think about my evaluation, the more unsure I am of the director's exact words. I did write out what was said in the evaluation to the best of my memory, but some parts (the important part of course) are fuzzy. I was first, and under the impression that this wasn't the time when we would be offered things, more just talk about them, so I think I heard that he would like to give me an apprenticeship, and I took it as a maybe for the future. Little did I know, he was about to offer apprenticeships to two other girls right now, after my meeting. After talking to another teacher about it, I decided to ask the director of the school, who was in the meeting with the artistic director of the company and I. I have not done so yet, but I will soon.

Also, I am surprised at how helpful the "career adviser" from the school has been. I gave him a list of companies I am considering if it doesn't work out here, and tomorrow he wants to meet with me and a few other girls. Apparently he researched all sorts of companies - the ones on my list and more, and he will do his best to help me get auditions. We'll see what he says tomorrow, but I am excited that he is being so helpful.

I am exhausted, as usual, but happy because I have been rehearsing all day and the more I dance the happier I am! usually. ha. Good night!

Janie